If You can hold the stars in place, You can hold my heart the same.

I am going through my phone and I see this screenshot from Easter from the Sidewalk Prophets: “This is the moment when all will be made new. I know that you don’t understand but this is part of a greater plan so I lay down my life for you.” Ok. That put my selfishness into place. I don’t understand Your plan and I question it wayyyyy too much because Your plan is so much greater than I can even imagine. When You asked Your son to die on the cross for my sins, he didn’t question You. He didn’t wonder why. He was an obedient son. He literally got up there and did it. He prayed about it and then he just did it. You were asking the impossible and he did with no complaints and no hesitation and no regret.

My favorite quote is Thomas Edison’s: “If we did all the things we are capable of, we would literally astound ourselves.” I always used that to motivate myself into doing more, but Lord maybe I should have been thinking of You. Because Lord, You astound me. You are capable of far more than I can even fathom. You literally created the Heavens and the Earth without help from the peanut gallery so, why do I insist on knowing Your plan and questioning Your plan?

“You spoke a word, life began
Told oceans where to start and where to end
You set in motion time and space
But still you come and you’re calling me by name”

So, this is my prayer. So here I am, lifting up my heart to the one who holds the stars. Thank you for calling me by name. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for calming the raging sea inside of me. Thank you for calming the storm inside of me. Thank you for reminding me of who you are. Thank you for your plan. Thank you for sending your son to save me. Thank you for everything. Thank you for my life. Thank you for creating this world. Thank you for today. Thank you for creating me. Thank you for all you’ve given me. I pray that I actively listen to you more. I pray I follow your plan. I pray that I learn to calm down and accept that you plan is greater than my own. I pray that I trust you. I pray that I put my faith in you. I pray that I lean on you. I pray that you lead me. I pray that I give you my heart. I pray that I give you my everything. I pray that I give you all that I am. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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You can have all this world, give me Jesus.

I was in the car today on the way home from work and I called my dad. He started talking politics again and he says things just to push my buttons and get me all defensive. I played right into his hands. I started defending my opinions and just kept talking and he just sat there laughing. I was sitting there talking about how our only job in life is to bring people to You, Lord.

Our job as Christians is to engage in Your word and with Your people. Isaiah 40:8 says: The grass withers and the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever. We are called to love others as You first loved us. We are called to love. Thomas Edison said: “If we did all the things we were capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves.” I just want the chance to do that. I want to use all that I capable of doing for Your plan. I know You are the Master and Creator, that You are connecting every single thing together to work for Your glory. I am just a small part in Your greater plan and I am so thankful to have a tiny part in Your plan.

I was watching American Idol the other day and one of the judges told La’Porsha that she was a vessel for her gift, that it just poured through her. Later she said: “I used to sing like I knew what I was doing now I sing like I know why I’m doing it.” My why is You, Lord. On the next episode Keith Urban told La’Porsha about this saying: “I judge myself not by what I have, but what I am willing to give.” I want to give it all to You, Lord. Everything I am, everything I have. I wanna give it all to You. I wanna grow in You. I wanna keep praying and walking with You. I wanna grow closer to You. I have spent my entire life, following You and growing in my relationship with You. And the last two years, I was practically running to You. I have spent time growing in my faith. I want to spend even more time with You. I want to pray more and read more and study more.

I want to tell everyone about You, Jesus. That’s part of why when I started college, my major was education. I figured that was the best way to serve You. Then I found public relations or rather public relations found me. It was like everything in my life has been leading up to this point. Every day in class, every experience, every job, every activity I ever participated in, every fundraiser I ever helped lead, every event I ever planned, and every leadership position I ever held has been leading me here. Graduation is only a couple of months away. I’ve been collecting certain skills and talents my whole life for this moment. I have been working towards this for as long as I can remember. Lord, You are so intentional. I didn’t see the way the puzzle pieces were going to fit together, but I think I always knew this was where you wanted me.

Lord, You have a plan for my life, I know that and whether this is what You want me to do or if this is just supposed to teach me something. Either way, Lord, I want to serve You. I want to bring people to You. I want to tell others about You. I want to share Your love. I want to use my education, my knowledge, my attributes, and my abilities to work for You.

Isaiah 6:8 says: Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.

Lord, I sent out another application today. This one had me beaming from ear to ear and my eyes welling up with tears from excitement. Honestly, I just want to serve You, Lord, to the best of my abilities, in any way You see fit.

So, this is my prayer today. If this is your will, Lord, then let’s go. I want to serve you. I want to go where you send me. I pray that I keep seeking your will. I pray that I keep following you. I pray that I bring honor and glory to your name. Lord, I pray that you light my path. I pray that I seek you. I pray that you lead me and guide me. I pray that I have an open heart and open ears to listen. I pray that I sing because I know why. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

It’s all about you Jesus.

I was on Facebook today and this quote scrolled by that said: “God didn’t add another day in your life because you needed it, he added it because someone out there needs you.” I think I get so caught up in all the things I want to accomplish, all the things I want to do, all the things I want to be. (See that key word, I? I can be pretty selfish sometimes.) Lord, I forget that it’s not about me. It’s about You.

I think we are all put on this earth to help someone else, to bring people to You. I get so focused on the step in my big plan that I need to be reminded that I am just a very small part of the plan. That’s not to say that I don’t still want those things or that they aren’t important because they are important and I should still strive to accomplish my goals. They just are a very tiny part of the plan. They aren’t the reason I’m still here. I’m still here because my work isn’t done yet. I’m here because Your plan is so much bigger than mine.

One of my favorite quotes is from Thomas Edison and it says: “If we did all the things we were capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves.” Let me repeat that. We would literally astound ourselves. We often underestimate our own potential. We give ourselves the short end of the stick. We let others condense us and put us in boxes. You don’t make mistakes. You don’t make meaningless things. You make everything with a purpose. You make everything glorious. That’s why I like this quote so much because what if we did all that we were capable of? Can You imagine the possibilities? Can You imagine what all we could accomplish? Of course You can because You made us with that idea in mind. Now, what if we used all that potential to help people and to serve You and to love others and bring people to You?  Well I think today has served as a call to action for me.

So, this is my prayer today. I pray that I remember that it’s your will and your plan. I pray that I focus on you. I pray that I keep looking to you. I pray that I learn to love more. I pray that I learn to honor you. I pray that I learn to bring people to you. I pray that I learn to help people more. I pray that I give back to you because I am so thankful for all that you have given me. I pray that I learn to stay humble. I pray that I learn to be kinder. I pray that I don’t lose sight of what is important. I pray that I continue to work towards my goals, but that I work even harder to be closer to you. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.