And now whatever way our stories end I know you have rewritten mine.

Packing up my room for the last time was much more emotional than I ever thought for. I do not even have words to explain how much this place and these people mean to me so, here’s the best I’ve got.

“For Good”

[Elphaba:]
I’m limited.
Just look at me.
I’m limited.
And just look at you.
You can do all I couldn’t do.
Glinda…
So now it’s up to you,
For both of us.
Now it’s up to you.

[Glinda:]
I’ve heard it said,
That people come into our lives
For a reason
Bringing something we must learn.
And we are led to those
Who help us most to grow if we let them.
And we help them in return.
Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today
Because I knew you.

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun,
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood.
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better
But because I knew you.
I have been changed for good.

[Elphaba:]
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime.
So, let me say before we part:
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you.
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine
By being my friend.

Like a ship blown from it’s mooring
By a wind off the sea.
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood.
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better
But because I knew you…

[Glinda:]
Because I knew you…

[Both:]
I have been changed for good.

[Elphaba:]
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I’ve done,
You blame me for.

[Glinda:]
But then I guess,
We know there’s blame to share.

[Both:]
And none of it seems to matter anymore.
Like a comet pulled from orbit
(Like a ship blown from it’s mooring)
As it passes a sun.
(By a wind off the sea)
Like a stream that meets a boulder
(Like a seed dropped by bird)
Halfway through the wood.
(In the wood)
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better.
I do believe I have been changed for the better.

[Glinda:]
And because I knew you…

[Elphaba:]
Because I knew you…

[Both:]
Because I knew you
I have been changed…
For good.

So, here is my prayer today. As I say goodbye to this place and more importantly to the people that have changed me for good, I pray for them. I pray my university and my town only grow. I pray they continue to work on bettering their communities. This town and this university have shown me real character and filled my heart with pride. I pray every word of this song for the people I’m saying goodbye to. I mean every single word. I pray they know I’m bringing little pieces of them with me when I go. I pray they know just how big a part in my story they are. I pray their next chapter is as good as the last one has been. This might be the end of this chapter, but I pray we’re still in each other’s stories. I pray for my Alpha Gamma Delta sister and roommate as she leaves for Arkansas. I pray she excels over there and has safe travels. I pray for her internship. I pray that she sees how wonderful she is. I pray that she makes a difference there like she did here. I pray for my beautiful, smart, confident, outgoing, Alpha Gamma Delta sister in who is going to New Mexico. I pray that she knows how much she means to me. I pray that her travels are safe and that she has a blast and that she accomplishes all her dreams and more. I pray she continues to soar and fly. I pray she enjoys every minute there. I pray for my Alpha Gamma Delta sister who became my person. I pray she knows how much she changed my life. She has shown me more love than I’ll ever deserve. I pray that all her dreams come true. I pray that she continues to shine everywhere she goes. I pray for her husband because I’m gonna miss his friendship too. I pray that he continues to be the wonderful leader that he is. I pray his dreams come true too. Thank you for bringing these people into my life. Thank you allowing us to be a part of each other’s stories. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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Let it go.

Part 5 of the How to be Awesome series is “Avoid the Comparison Trap.” She simply says “comparison ruins everything.” I probably need this message a little more than I would like to admit. (When I say a little, I really mean a lot.) She asks which part we fall into and fun fact, I fall into all three. (No matter how many times I say I’m perfect and put my cute little hand under my chin with a smile, the truth is I am far from it.) Comparison is something I struggle with.

1. “Comparing destroys confidence.”

Well that hit the nail on the head. I find myself looking for approval from others and making sure that I’m in line with what others are doing way too often. I need to learn to get approval from You, rather than others. I need to learn to seek permission and affirmation from You instead.

2. “Comparing zaps your happy.”

This one again was right on point. She talked about how comparing just sucked the happiness out of her in like 30 seconds or less and it wasn’t because she wasn’t happy for the other person or because she wanted what the other person had. It was simply because she was comparing the two. It’s not necessarily a jealously thing. I don’t want to be you or have what you have. I just see others doing amazing things and or being amazing and I want that too but I take that wanting feeling too far sometimes. She even realized how simply silly the whole thing was, that there was no point in making yourself unhappy by comparing. I realize this too, but sometimes I just get in a mood and no matter what I’m doing, someone is doing it better.

3. “Comparing ignores your unique talents and gifts.”

She talks about how she compares their strengths to her weaknesses and I totally do the same thing. I need to remember that You made me unique and for a purpose. I am the way I am for a reason. I do not have the skills and abilities that other people have, I have my own special talents. I need to remember that they are, in fact, gifts and given to me by You.

So, as usual my life is a soundtrack and here is today’s song:

“Let it go, let it go
And I’ll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone!

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!”

So, this is my prayer. I pray that I learn to leave the comparison trap(s). I pray that I learn to focus on you instead of comparing my life to others. I pray that I learn to let it go. I pray that I learn to stop letting comparison steal my happiness and confidence. I pray that I stop letting comparison take control over my life and stop me from sharing my gifts and talents. I pray that I become so focused on you that I don’t worry about comparing. I pray that I give the control to you instead of comparison. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.