And now whatever way our stories end I know you have rewritten mine.

Packing up my room for the last time was much more emotional than I ever thought for. I do not even have words to explain how much this place and these people mean to me so, here’s the best I’ve got.

“For Good”

[Elphaba:]
I’m limited.
Just look at me.
I’m limited.
And just look at you.
You can do all I couldn’t do.
Glinda…
So now it’s up to you,
For both of us.
Now it’s up to you.

[Glinda:]
I’ve heard it said,
That people come into our lives
For a reason
Bringing something we must learn.
And we are led to those
Who help us most to grow if we let them.
And we help them in return.
Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today
Because I knew you.

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun,
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood.
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better
But because I knew you.
I have been changed for good.

[Elphaba:]
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime.
So, let me say before we part:
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you.
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine
By being my friend.

Like a ship blown from it’s mooring
By a wind off the sea.
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood.
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better
But because I knew you…

[Glinda:]
Because I knew you…

[Both:]
I have been changed for good.

[Elphaba:]
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I’ve done,
You blame me for.

[Glinda:]
But then I guess,
We know there’s blame to share.

[Both:]
And none of it seems to matter anymore.
Like a comet pulled from orbit
(Like a ship blown from it’s mooring)
As it passes a sun.
(By a wind off the sea)
Like a stream that meets a boulder
(Like a seed dropped by bird)
Halfway through the wood.
(In the wood)
Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better.
I do believe I have been changed for the better.

[Glinda:]
And because I knew you…

[Elphaba:]
Because I knew you…

[Both:]
Because I knew you
I have been changed…
For good.

So, here is my prayer today. As I say goodbye to this place and more importantly to the people that have changed me for good, I pray for them. I pray my university and my town only grow. I pray they continue to work on bettering their communities. This town and this university have shown me real character and filled my heart with pride. I pray every word of this song for the people I’m saying goodbye to. I mean every single word. I pray they know I’m bringing little pieces of them with me when I go. I pray they know just how big a part in my story they are. I pray their next chapter is as good as the last one has been. This might be the end of this chapter, but I pray we’re still in each other’s stories. I pray for my Alpha Gamma Delta sister and roommate as she leaves for Arkansas. I pray she excels over there and has safe travels. I pray for her internship. I pray that she sees how wonderful she is. I pray that she makes a difference there like she did here. I pray for my beautiful, smart, confident, outgoing, Alpha Gamma Delta sister in who is going to New Mexico. I pray that she knows how much she means to me. I pray that her travels are safe and that she has a blast and that she accomplishes all her dreams and more. I pray she continues to soar and fly. I pray she enjoys every minute there. I pray for my Alpha Gamma Delta sister who became my person. I pray she knows how much she changed my life. She has shown me more love than I’ll ever deserve. I pray that all her dreams come true. I pray that she continues to shine everywhere she goes. I pray for her husband because I’m gonna miss his friendship too. I pray that he continues to be the wonderful leader that he is. I pray his dreams come true too. Thank you for bringing these people into my life. Thank you allowing us to be a part of each other’s stories. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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I have been changed for good.

Yesterday, I was thinking about what I had learned in college. So, today I thought I would make a list of things I would go back and tell myself as a freshman:

1. Don’t confuse friendship for love. It only gets you hurt.

2. Stand up for yourself the moment something happens. Do not dwell on it.

3. There are two sides to every story.

4. Don’t take online classes lightly.

5. Everyone has a story, listen and don’t be afraid to share yours too.

6. You know your own issues better than anyone. Stop letting others have control over you.

7. Move into the house on bid day and don’t move out until you’re an Alum. All of your best memories will be in that house. Cherish them.

8. Talk to someone and swallow your pride. It’s ok that you have anxiety and depression sometimes. Accept your imperfections. You are a work in progress.

9. Don’t listen to what others say about you. You will never their true intentions. I heard that “people are not against you, they are just for themselves.” That one sentence changed my entire perspective on life.

10. Leave the past in the past. Stop holding onto it. Allow yourself to heal and move on.

11. Don’t trust everyone you meet, but don’t hold grudges either.

12. Keep putting yourself out there. Don’t get bitter when you face rejection. Not everyone and everything is meant to be.

13. Remember that you are a lot stronger than you think you are.

14. You are going to experience real heartbreak and loss for the first real time and it’s going to suck and you are going to think the world is ending. You are going to struggle and you are going to be lost, but you have wonderful sisters and family and they will keep finding you no matter how lost you get. You can lean on your faith and find comfort in God.

15. You are going to have to deal with drama from the moment you are born until the very end. It’s at school, work, organizations, and everywhere you go. It is inevitable but that doesn’t mean you have to buy into it or feed it. You can chose to set yourself free of the negative. That doesn’t mean when things get rough that you have a free pass to run away from the problems. Your problems will follow you where ever you go. As an Alpha Gamma Delta more is expected of you and that is not supposed to be a scary thing, it is a responsibility to do better and be better, to make the world better.

16. I went through recruitment because of what it could give me: friends, community service, leadership, etc. I came to bid day because of mattress surfing and For Good. I went to initiation because of what my big was teaching me. I stayed because I found my person, my soulmate, and my littles. I stayed because I gave each one of my sisters a piece of my heart.

So, this is my prayer today. Thank you for the experience I’ve had here. Thank you for the love and joy that I’ve seen. Thank you for the lessons learned. Thank you for forgiving my mistakes. Thank you for changing me for good. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.