Your love has captured me.

I watched this interview of Priscilla Shirer for the movie War Room. (Which, btdubbs was like sooo good. Like I cried all the way through and I felt like I was in church with the way people were saying Amen and clapping along. I will be getting it on DVD the day it comes out and I will be sitting down with a pen and pad to take notes!) In the interview, she was asked if she would ever act again after War Room. Her response floored me. She said: “If there was a project that came along that gave me an opportunity to still ride in line with the purpose that I know has been set before me for my life, I would be open to it.” Wow. Now can I please apply that to my graduation job search please? It brought me back to my youth group days, jamming out to this song:

So, that is my prayer today. Lord, I pray that you will show me the path. I pray that you will send a project along. I pray that you will open a door. I pray that you will guide me. I pray that you will lead me. I pray that I go in line with the purpose you set for my life. I pray that I am open to the opportunity when it arises. I pray that give it all to you. I pray that everything I do, I do it for you. I pray that every step I take, I take in you. I pray that I honor you. I pray that I live for you. I pray that every move I make, I make in you. You are my way, Jesus. Lord, I pray that follow you. I pray that I shift my focus to you. I pray that I put you first. Thank you for your love. Thank you for showing me your grace and mercy and love. Thank you for everything you’ve given me. Lord, you amaze me. You astound me. You literally take my breathe away with how incredible your timing is. Thank you for having a plan for my life. Thank you for this journey. Thank you for the ups and downs and all you’re teaching me. I pray that I move where you want me. I pray that I go where you need me. I pray that I learn all that you need me to. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

I am a fighter.

Why do people feel the need to underestimate me when they don’t even know me? Like they don’t know anything about me but they tell me I’m not good enough. I am so exhausted and tired of people making judgments about what kind of person I am. Everyone has their own path to go down and their own story to tell. I have a resume a mile long with why I am fully capable of making my dreams come true. I am strong enough and work hard enough to get where I want to go. I don’t need anyone else’s approval to live my life. I just need you, God. You made me. You don’t do anything without reason. There is a purpose for every hair on my head. There is a purpose for my every strength, my every flaw, my every word and thought. You made me just the way you wanted. You made me with intentional purpose.

“So I wanna say thank you
‘Cause it
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter”

Every time this happens I start to think maybe they are right and I doubt myself, if only for a minute because I know with you, Lord, I can do anything. You lift me up every time they knock me down. I have always been told that if you want to see change in the world, you have to go out and be the change. I am trying so hard so make a change and to bring glory to you but sometimes it feels like I will never be good enough. I heard this story one time that taught me that maybe I am just a seed planter; that I am not the one who gets to see the flower bloom but my job is important. Maybe it’s not about me. Maybe I am just a seed planter and you have a much bigger plan than I can even imagine.

“Every move I make
Every move I make, I make in You
You make me move Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in You
Every step I take, I take in You
You find my way Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in You”

So, this is my prayer today. I pray that I keep my eyes focused on you. I pray that I remember that I am your child no matter what anyone else says. I pray “every move I make in you.” I pray that you keep a hand on my life and lead me where you want. I pray I remember that I am a work in progress and that you are molding me. I pray that you keep working on me. I pray for strength and endurance. I pray that you keep “making me a fighter.” I pray that you keep reminding me that your plan is bigger. I pray that you use me. I pray that you keep me grounded. Thank you for making me who I am. I appreciate all you gave to me. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.