Things will be all right now.

I went with my family to go see Into the Woods when it first came out. I loved it and I’m pretty sure I am the only one in my family to love it. It was very different from the original fairy tales. I expected that, but I had no idea what I was in for. With as much as I loved the “life lessons” throughout the movie. (And I loveeeeee life lessons!) The end is what left me head over heels in love. Some of the characters died leaving the rest of them in the woods. Emily Blunt started singing “Sometimes people leave you halfway through the wood.” At this point, I was at a loss for words. I started crying. “Do not let it grieve you, No one leaves for good.” Ok, so, I thought I was crying before. Now I was ugly crying. (Like runny nose, hyperventilating, uglyyyy crying.) “You are not alone. No one is alone.” (Seriously, I lost it.)

With everything that happened in 2014, I thought we would fall apart and we did. We were caught off guard. We were unraveled. I tried to look for a reason so I could understand why things happened. It wasn’t until I heard Emily Blunt that I realized sometimes people leave us halfway through the wood and we don’t know why. It was like I had a divine intervention right there in the movie. I thought we wouldn’t survive. I thought we would be forever altered and we were. We are altered. We are changed. We think before we speak. We tell the ones we love that we love them more. We are vulnerable. We are stronger and weaker at the same time. We are kinder.

The next day, I went to the store and bought the soundtrack. I have practically burned a hole in the CD with as many times as I have listened to it. I don’t know if it was just how Emily Blunt sang with Stephen Sondheim’s words for me to hear. I don’t know if I was just finally in place to hear them. Maybe it was both of those things, but I was listening. “Hold him to the light now, Let him see the glow. Things will be all right now.”

So, this is my prayer today. Thank you for making sure I got the message. Thank you for reminding me that I am not alone. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for showing me your light. Thank you for showing me your unending love and grace. I pray that I take Stephen Sondheim song with me. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Let it go.

Part 5 of the How to be Awesome series is “Avoid the Comparison Trap.” She simply says “comparison ruins everything.” I probably need this message a little more than I would like to admit. (When I say a little, I really mean a lot.) She asks which part we fall into and fun fact, I fall into all three. (No matter how many times I say I’m perfect and put my cute little hand under my chin with a smile, the truth is I am far from it.) Comparison is something I struggle with.

1. “Comparing destroys confidence.”

Well that hit the nail on the head. I find myself looking for approval from others and making sure that I’m in line with what others are doing way too often. I need to learn to get approval from You, rather than others. I need to learn to seek permission and affirmation from You instead.

2. “Comparing zaps your happy.”

This one again was right on point. She talked about how comparing just sucked the happiness out of her in like 30 seconds or less and it wasn’t because she wasn’t happy for the other person or because she wanted what the other person had. It was simply because she was comparing the two. It’s not necessarily a jealously thing. I don’t want to be you or have what you have. I just see others doing amazing things and or being amazing and I want that too but I take that wanting feeling too far sometimes. She even realized how simply silly the whole thing was, that there was no point in making yourself unhappy by comparing. I realize this too, but sometimes I just get in a mood and no matter what I’m doing, someone is doing it better.

3. “Comparing ignores your unique talents and gifts.”

She talks about how she compares their strengths to her weaknesses and I totally do the same thing. I need to remember that You made me unique and for a purpose. I am the way I am for a reason. I do not have the skills and abilities that other people have, I have my own special talents. I need to remember that they are, in fact, gifts and given to me by You.

So, as usual my life is a soundtrack and here is today’s song:

“Let it go, let it go
And I’ll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone!

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway!”

So, this is my prayer. I pray that I learn to leave the comparison trap(s). I pray that I learn to focus on you instead of comparing my life to others. I pray that I learn to let it go. I pray that I learn to stop letting comparison steal my happiness and confidence. I pray that I stop letting comparison take control over my life and stop me from sharing my gifts and talents. I pray that I become so focused on you that I don’t worry about comparing. I pray that I give the control to you instead of comparison. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Make a wave.

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.”

I have always loved this quote and have tried to practice it. I fall short sometimes, probably more often than I would like to admit. I complain about whatever is going on in my life that isn’t as picture perfect like I thought it would be. But I think we are called to lead by example. I think if we want to see a change then we must start changing. When you ride a plane they tell you to put your mask on first. I think that applies to more than just when we’re on the plane. I think we have to make the change in ourselves first. I think that nothing is ever going to happen if we sit back and wait on it.

“Just a pebble in the water (ohh)
Can set the sea in motion (ohh)
A simple act of kindness (ohh)
Can stir the widest ocean
If we show a little love
Heaven knows what we could change (oh yeah)
So throw a pebble in the water (oh yeah)
And make a wave, make a wave
Make a wave, make a wave”

I think you place us right where you want us Lord. I think everything happens for a purpose, for your purpose. I think it is incredibly important that we surround ourselves with people that support us and encourage us but it is equally important for us to do the same for others. I think too often we try to stay in our own little bubble. I know I try to. I like safe. I like security and there isn’t anything wrong with that but I think it is important for us to be the person running the lighthouse right in the heart of the storm showing the way to you. You are the light that guides me home but sometimes I think it is important to share that light you gave us. I heard one time, “If you had the cure to cancer would you share it?” They were trying to explain that we had you and how we were saved but we weren’t sharing it. I think you created each and every one of us to be used for your glory.

So, that is my prayer today. I pray that you use me. I thank you for putting me right where you want me. I thank you for creating a purpose in me. I thank you for guiding me. I thank you for leading me. I thank you for putting the right people in my life to support me. I hope I support them as much as they support me. I pray that I share your light with those around me. I pray that I am that pebble in the ocean. I pray that you use me for your glory. I pray that you use me to bring others to you. I pray that you use me to help those around me. I pray that I encourage others and lift them up to you. I pray that you keep molding me and changing me. I pray that you keep working on my heart. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.