You can have all this world, give me Jesus.

I was in the car today on the way home from work and I called my dad. He started talking politics again and he says things just to push my buttons and get me all defensive. I played right into his hands. I started defending my opinions and just kept talking and he just sat there laughing. I was sitting there talking about how our only job in life is to bring people to You, Lord.

Our job as Christians is to engage in Your word and with Your people. Isaiah 40:8 says: The grass withers and the flowers fade, but the word of our God stands forever. We are called to love others as You first loved us. We are called to love. Thomas Edison said: “If we did all the things we were capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves.” I just want the chance to do that. I want to use all that I capable of doing for Your plan. I know You are the Master and Creator, that You are connecting every single thing together to work for Your glory. I am just a small part in Your greater plan and I am so thankful to have a tiny part in Your plan.

I was watching American Idol the other day and one of the judges told La’Porsha that she was a vessel for her gift, that it just poured through her. Later she said: “I used to sing like I knew what I was doing now I sing like I know why I’m doing it.” My why is You, Lord. On the next episode Keith Urban told La’Porsha about this saying: “I judge myself not by what I have, but what I am willing to give.” I want to give it all to You, Lord. Everything I am, everything I have. I wanna give it all to You. I wanna grow in You. I wanna keep praying and walking with You. I wanna grow closer to You. I have spent my entire life, following You and growing in my relationship with You. And the last two years, I was practically running to You. I have spent time growing in my faith. I want to spend even more time with You. I want to pray more and read more and study more.

I want to tell everyone about You, Jesus. That’s part of why when I started college, my major was education. I figured that was the best way to serve You. Then I found public relations or rather public relations found me. It was like everything in my life has been leading up to this point. Every day in class, every experience, every job, every activity I ever participated in, every fundraiser I ever helped lead, every event I ever planned, and every leadership position I ever held has been leading me here. Graduation is only a couple of months away. I’ve been collecting certain skills and talents my whole life for this moment. I have been working towards this for as long as I can remember. Lord, You are so intentional. I didn’t see the way the puzzle pieces were going to fit together, but I think I always knew this was where you wanted me.

Lord, You have a plan for my life, I know that and whether this is what You want me to do or if this is just supposed to teach me something. Either way, Lord, I want to serve You. I want to bring people to You. I want to tell others about You. I want to share Your love. I want to use my education, my knowledge, my attributes, and my abilities to work for You.

Isaiah 6:8 says: Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.

Lord, I sent out another application today. This one had me beaming from ear to ear and my eyes welling up with tears from excitement. Honestly, I just want to serve You, Lord, to the best of my abilities, in any way You see fit.

So, this is my prayer today. If this is your will, Lord, then let’s go. I want to serve you. I want to go where you send me. I pray that I keep seeking your will. I pray that I keep following you. I pray that I bring honor and glory to your name. Lord, I pray that you light my path. I pray that I seek you. I pray that you lead me and guide me. I pray that I have an open heart and open ears to listen. I pray that I sing because I know why. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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There’s a hand still holding me.

I woke up this morning fully ready to just go back to sleep. I felt fine, I was just in a mood where I wasn’t ready to face the day. I went to check my phone and I looked at Facebook then my timehop. My timehop one year ago was a conversation I had with Christopher. He was upset about something and his response was priceless: he said he wanted to go to church. I texted Dallas immediately! The guy was perfect! When the world got him down, he just raised himself up higher towards You. When he was upset all he wanted was You, Lord. I need to be more like that. I think I’m learning that this year, Lord. I think I’m learning to fall to my knees in awe of You. Lord, I need to learn to trust You more. My timehop two years ago was when I got one of my littles, Diamond. Three years ago was when I saw Eric Church at Bayfest and the next day I had lost my voice and Dallas told me I sounded like Darth Vadar. See? Apparently today was just meant to be a good day.

“There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it”

(btw it’s totally raining outside!! It’s gonna be a good day!!)

So, that is my prayer today. I pray that I go to you when I feel shaky. I pray that I lean on you. I pray that when I start to fall I remember who is catching me. I pray that I take Danny Gokey’s song with me. I pray that you still keep showing me your love and faithfulness. I pray that I keep seeing all the good you do for me. I pray for strength and guidance. I pray you keep showing me that you have me, that no matter how old I get I am your child. I pray that you keep holding me. I pray that I keep looking to you. I pray for my future husband, where ever he is. I pray that he has a good day today too. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.