And soon enough you’ll find the door.

I went home during my break and watched last night’s episode of Grey’s Anatomy.

They were nervous about the surgery they were about to perform. And first off that military man had me ready to cry the moment the episode started so I knew this was gonna be good. So Callie says: “Everything is gonna be fine, you guys. We just have to be squirrels about this.”And Avery, being Avery questioning everything says: “I couldn’t have heard you correctly.” The Alpha Gam in me was like shhhh Avery, this is about to get so good, just listen. Callie is talking about squirrels!! So Callie explains: “Oh you know, squirrels, they store nuts for the winter, right? But they don’t do it all at once. They do it one nut at a time. Everyone has their part to play so everyone just needs to handle their own nut. We do that and get all the nuts.” I was laughing so hard and grinning ear to ear. Shonda knows that squirrels work hard. Like if that explanation didn’t completely explain my four years in Alpha Gamma Delta, I don’t know what will. Those women in Alpha Gam work hard.

When they are done scrubbing in, Bailey stops and says: “We’re praying. Torez is right, we’ll be fine if we each just do our part. I figured it don’t hurt to ask God to do his.” If this were American Idol, this would be were Jennifer Lopez would tell everyone she got goosies. I mean, I got goose bumps on top of my goose bumps. Like I was one of those old ladies in church with her hand in the air, screaming Amen as loud as they could. What got me most was Dr. Jackson Avery was standing there with his eyes closed, practically praying with her. That man has been through a lot and he tries to fight God and faith at every turn and somehow he still winds up in the same place, faced right with You, Lord. Grey’s Anatomy might be just a TV show, but they are beautifully illustrating how You knock on someone’s heart. Sometimes You knock by taking the whole door down, but sometimes it’s more gentle and subtle and it happens slowly over time. Sometimes no matter how many times we ignore that door bell, You keep waiting and hoping patiently that we will open the door and welcome You into our hearts.

So, that is prayer, I’m praying Bailey’s prayer. I know I can’t do this on my own. I’m asking you to your job. I pray that I give up my control and let you work in me and in those around me. And I’m praying that I do my job. I pray that I work hard. I pray that you keep knocking on doors. I pray they listen. I pray that they see the door and they see you. I pray they stop running from you and see that you’ve been right there all along. I pray they open the door. I pray that I continue to be a squirrel and continue to do my job and continue to let you do yours. I am not in control. I am just doing my job. Lord, I surrender all. Thank you for showing up and doing your job. Thank you for knocking on my heart. Thank you for never leaving me. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

I am right here in Your hands.

This week’s assignment is search engine optimization. We were asked how we were going to use SEO for the website we’re creating. I plan to use SEO through the 5 SEO Strategies. The ones I am focusing on the most are “#1 Get Quality Links,” “#3 Set a Canonical Url,” and “#5 Responsive Design.” I have already created the url which is my full name so, when my name is searched for then my website portfolio will show up. I have been working on my design also, to make sure it is usable on different screens. The biggest way I am going to use SEO is through my links. Almost every page on my online portfolio has links to something I’m doing, whether it’s my blog page or social media or my LinkedIn account. We were also asked if there were disadvantages to this. With SEO, everything is connected and easily found, which can help keep me honest because everything I do is connected. That can be a scary thought, but it can also be a blessing.

It’s kinda funny that we’re discussing search engine optimization this week because I have been using it all week to find new blogs to read and this morning one found me. I woke up to my phone buzzing because I had a new follower so, as usual I went to go look at her blog too. Whether she found my blog through SEO and tags for Colton Dixon or Lysa Terkeurst, I’m glad she stumbled upon my blog because I was so encouraged reading hers too. Whether it’s because we have a shared love for Colton Dixon music or because she’s starting a Lysa Terkeurst bible study and I just finished one, I quickly realized that we have a lot in common. We had been through some of the same stuff. Last year, we both lost people we loved. She found a new relationship with You through it all and I found an old one. She was scared to go to church alone and so was I a few months ago. I have been in her shoes, waiting in that car, and gathering up the courage to get out and go inside. What I found inside was well worth the trip though. I found a group of people to hold me accountable, to challenge me, to encourage me, to strengthen me, to lead me to You. I have also had a professor who wasn’t a Christian and he let everyone know it. Although, I never got asked to raise my hand for my beliefs, I am really proud of her for raising hers. I can understand her and how she feels for people. I am the same way. I am not a sympathetic person, I’m empathetic. I feel what others feel. This can be a blessing and a curse. When someone comes to with good news, I am like the best person to come to because I can share in that joy with them. I can be just as happy for them as I would be for me, if not, more so. This can also be rough sometimes. She’s right and I can totally relate when she said it was a lot of weight to carry. What I’m learning this year is that You are already carrying that weight for us and we don’t have to hold onto it. Not only will You carry that hurt, but You will carry us.

I woke up this morning with my phone buzzing and Alan Jackson singing What A Friend We Have In Jesus on Pandora. You never ceases to amaze me.

“What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer!”

So, this is my prayer today. I pray for her. I pray that she continues to grow in her relationship with you. I pray for healing for her loss. I pray that she is encouraged and supported at her new church. I pray that she learns a lot from her bible study from Lysa Terkeurst. I pray that Colton Dixon’s songs keep speaking to her. I pray that she continues to see the beauty in feeling what others feel. Thank you for your encouragement this morning. Thank you for leading me. Thank you for allowing me to come to you in prayer. Thank you for listening. Thank you for everything you’ve done and will do. I pray that I take Calling Glory’s song with me this week. Thank you for the plan that is bigger than my past. Thank you for carrying me. Thank you for speaking to my heart. I pray that I continue to grow in my relationship with you too. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.