If You walked out of the grave, I’m walkin’ too.

When I open my She Reads Truth Bible, there’s an introduction to Genesis, towards the end of it, states: “All of our brokenness begins here, in the first book of the Bible, as does God’s covenant to redeem His people.” Woah, buddy. The reminder that where our brokenness begins so does Your redemption is much needed, daily. The very places we are broken lead to where we are redeemed, where we can then help others find redemption too. Bless, that’s powerful. Thank You Lord.

Emily Ley in A Simplified Life wrote: “Letting Him lead the way is hard. If you’re anything like me, you usually believe your way is the right way. But sometimes God wants us to trust that He’s not surprised by anything. He planned each twist and turn in our lives and He wants to walk through them with us, if we’ll let Him.”

Lord, in every place I’m reading lately, it’s telling me to trust and obey. You will provide.

Genesis 18:14 says: ‘Is anything impossible for the Lord?’ At the appointed time I will come back to you, and in about a year she will have a son.

I am literally nothing without You, Lord. I can accomplish nothing without You, Father. And thank You God, I am not alone. Even on my best day, I could never amount to a hill of beans compared to what You can do through me. I just need to learn how to stop working against You. I needed this past year to learn how to be still.

Lord, I feel You sending me. I am not sure where I’m going, but Lord, my feet are moving. Guide me Father. Isaiah 58:11 says: The LORD will always lead you, satisfy you in a parched land, and strengthen your bones. You will be like a watered garden and like a spring whose water never runs dry. 

This past Sunday, the pastor taught on Deuteronomy 30:1-10. He said: “You are not crazy for this. This is not outside the box. This is predetermined by God. God will be glorified in you. There is help for you.” He said: “Believe in Christ and He will do this through you. Jesus has secured us in His Kingdom.” You are faithful, even when we aren’t. The cross is our guarantee. We don’t have to be afraid of the outcome. You got this. Literally. And You’ve got me.

So, here is my prayer. Lord, I pray that I follow your word. I pray I come to my senses. I pray I go where you are driving me. I pray I obey your commands. I pray I obey with all my heart and all my soul. I pray I trust you. I pray I keep my eyes focused on the cross. Thank you so much for using me. Thank you for designing this greater plan than I could even imagine. Thank you for your glory. Thank you for providing. Thank you for securing me. Thank you for teaching me. Thank you for showing me the way. Thank you for sending your son for me. Thank you for taking my place. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

 

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And I have lived in the goodness of God.

A couple of weeks ago, this kid says: “Miss Alyssa, you want me to put Hallmark on for you?” I responded: “Ohh you think I won’t come in here and bug you if Hallmark is on?”

“Yassssss Miss Alyssa.”

I smiled and thought to myself: “as long as I’m living…” I thought of the book my Mema read to my daddy and my daddy so proudly read to us.

The holidays are hard with harden hearts. I always try to go big and over compensate. I sing Christmas carols extra off key and extra funny. I dance terribly in the van as we sing “I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas.” I bake snowman cookies and accidentally burn cookies with trees on them. I wear big bow headbands and reindeer slippers and make sure stockings are filled to the top. But most importantly I teach them about who You are God. They’re full of questions and hurt and anger and confusion. I’m just trying to answer one question at a time. I’m trying to pray through each emotion coming at me.

I’m doing what I wrote on my binder: “Just do the best you can, with what you have, and trust God to fill in the gaps.” Later I added: “God made me. He has prepared this good work in advance for me. By His grace, I will walk in obedience, one step at a time.” I am walking those words I wrote down every single day. I can see how You used those words in my life every single day. In Ephesians 2:10 You called us Your workmanship. Lord, I hope I never stop building Your kingdom. I hope You continue to use me in any way You need. I hope I keep walking in obedience, even when I get scared and try to run away like Jonah.

2 Timothy 2:4 says: “Preach the word! Be ready in season and out of season. Convince, rebuke, exhort with all long suffering and teaching.”

As I try to give them space and grace too, I’m reflecting on my own relationship with You, God. The more I get to know who You are, the more I appreciate You, Your character, Your love, Your gifts, Your grand design and timing. Your goodness.


So this is my prayer. I pray for open minds, open hearts, and the opening of your word. I pray for some Holy Spirit movement up in here. Lord, only you can handle their anger. Only you can heal pretty little broken hearts. Only your word can settle all the debates and questions and confusion. I pray they lean into you and trust you. I pray they always keep seeking the truth. I pray they’re learning as much from me about you as I’m learning from them. I pray you pull down their walls and knock on their doors. I pray you pursue them, the way you pursued me. I pray that I remember even with as much as I love them, you love them more. I pray that you show them your love and consume them with it. I pray you break my heart for what breaks yours. I pray I love like you do. I pray I follow your lead and go where you need me. Lord, I have been blessed with an opportunity to see you work in their lives, I have seen them soften at your words. I pray that I always have eyes to see you move and see your goodness. I pray that I keep building my ark like Noah. I pray that I keep doing what you prepared me to do. I pray I keep reading and studying and teaching your word. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine.

Lord, as I was going through my day, I kept praying and asking: “Lord, how do I reach these kids?” And blesssedddd be the day, You showed me.

Tonight after feeling even more unqualified than I already did this morning. I wanted to help without knowing what to do so, I opened my Bible to 1 Corinthians 1. There I found a devotion on Super Glue.

The devotion told this whole story about a girl feeling like Super Glue and without her, everything else would fall apart. If she wasn’t spinning all the plates and keeping them all in the air, everything would crash. She talked about how this Super Glue complex even seeped into her relationship with You, Lord. Then she realized that You were the faithful one, even when she wasn’t. Even with Adam and Eve, You were faithful. Even with the Israelites, You were faithful. Even with Gomer, You were faithful. Even with her, You were faithful. Even with me, You are faithful.

The devotion ended with Romans 8:38-39 which says: For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I just finished Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. Ok, so Gomer is my girl! I might not have had the same story, but you betcha I could relate to her seeking out the darkness and seeking out the pain. Lord, I am not always faithful, even if it is literally my middle name.

So, when I finished reading the devotion and 1 Corinthians 1, I heard the Holy Spirit nudging. Lord, You were calling me to love, just love. At the end of my day, even when it hurts, even when it’s not fair, even when it’s hard, even when it’s easy, even when I’m tired, even when I’m having a really great day, even when I don’t feel it, even when I do feel it. Just love. If I let Your love flow through me and let Your love be the Super Glue that holds me together, instead of trying to be the Super Glue myself, I think I’m gonna be more than just fine. I just need to keep listening to that still, small voice.

So, here is my prayer today. Thank you for being faithful, always. Thank you for redeeming me, always. Thank you for not allowing anything to separate us. Thank you for pursing me. Thank you for knocking down walls and opening doors. Thank you for being a gentle, steady definition of love. Thank you for reminding me that I am a vessel for your love. Thank you for reminding me that I have Super Glue in me and that I don’t have to be the Super Glue myself. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.