Lord, they say you’re supposed to believe people when they tell you who they are. And best believe I know I am a hot mess. I can be self absorbed and not notice anything going on in the world around me. I can be awkward as all get out. I can be defensive and I can most definitely be stubborn. I can be too loud and I can be too quiet. I overthink literally everything. And I can run when I’m scared.
But Lord, I also love deeply. I am generous with my time and energy. I am so passionate about serving You in any way I can. I am kind and Lord, we both know, I’m funny. I mean, seriously, I am hysterical…in a goofy kinda way. I anticipate needs and fill them. I go above and beyond for others, to show them I love them. I am caring and genuine. I always look for the good. I’m definitely supportive and encouraging. I’m a pro at Star Wars trivia. My car karaoke moves would get no less than a 10 from Len Goodman. The rest of my cooking might be mediocre, but I make a real good meat loaf. And of course, I’ll be getting another 10 from good ole Len with my kitchen dancing skills. I’ve been through a lot, but good gracious it’s made me strong, I can handle anything that comes at me because of my relationship with You, God.
So, this is my prayer today. Lord, drop my defenses. I pray that I am honest, even about my embarrassing, traumatic baggage. Lord, I have unpacked so much already, I mean, seriously I have grown so much, but obviously I still have things to learn. Father, help me to communicate in a healthy way. I pray you give me strength and courage. I pray that I learn to depend on you more fully. I pray that I know my worth comes from you. Lord, give me the right words to say. Help me to open up and let people in. Father, let my actions and intentions be pure. I pray that I learn how to accept a compliment. You’ve shown me the difference between the lies and games so I pray I trust it when it’s real. I pray that I live more like you. I pray that I only speak words that build up and give life. I pray I lead others to you. I don’t want to just go to church, I want to be the church. I pray that I shine your light with every fiber in my being. Help me to refrain from jumping to conclusions. Help me to ask for what I need. Help me to offer everything I can. Help me to keep my expectations in check. Help me to say I’m sorry when I need to and to work it out. Help me to bring joy to those around me. Lord, help me to share my life. Help me to show up and be present. Lord, please don’t let me mess this up. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.