My heart was heavy this week. Lord, I prayed for you to break my heart for what breaks Yours. I prayed for You to open my eyes to those around me that need You. I can’t not see it now.
I see the man who asked for me to buy him a sandwich outside the Chick-Fil-A and again the next day when I saw him again.
I see it every time these kids reach out to me after they’ve run away. My heart is aching for them. I want to stand in the gap and help, but I’m not sure that I can legally do or even what to do. I want to be the connection that points them to You. When everyone else says no, I want to be the one that says yes, I’ll help. I don’t want to sit around doing nothing. I want to be always moving and guiding and pointing to You. I don’t want to give up on them, even when everyone else does. I don’t know what this looks like right now, but I know You are stirring something in my heart.
And Father, it’s November, so our birthday is coming and I am missing my friend, something fierce. If it’s not too much to ask, could You give him a hug from me? Father, I know he’s with You, I just miss him. Thank You for taking care of him. Thank You for the time I had with him. Thank You for writing a glorious story of Your love with his life.
Galatians 3: 28 says There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. Abba, my friend is Yours. I am Yours. And these kids are Yours. You never left us. None of us. You have been with each of us, this whole time. We just have to call out to You. You are faithful, even when we are not, even when we are lost and afraid. You always keep Your promises and You are always trustworthy. Father guide these kids home to You.
So, here is my prayer today. I pray I hold onto those around me a little tighter. I pray I hug a little longer. I pray I make a few more calls and meet up for coffee a few more times. I pray I walk a little slower and talk a little more. I pray I love a little louder. I pray that I give a little more. I pray I spend a little more time with you. I pray I keep seeking your heart. Father, this life is a mystery and sometimes it drags on and on, while other times it’s over in the blink of an eye. Lord, I pray I make this life count. I pray that I spend my life building your kingdom. I pray my heart never stops breaking for these kids. I pray that I move where you want me to. I pray I do more. I pray I point to you more. I pray I follow you. I pray I give all of myself to you. Abba, I pray I remember this isn’t about me and I can’t do it all and I can’t save anyone, only you can. Father, that’s what I’m asking for: save these kids. Do what I can’t. Send me where I can and show me the way. Lord, I prayed for you to interrupt my life and you changed it’s entire direction. Thank you for giving me more than I could even imagine. Help me to stay focused on you. Father, grab a hold of their hearts and don’t let go. Thank you for chasing them with gentle grace, the way you chased me. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.