Tonight I was telling my little that basically I was the little girl in 13 Going On 30. I wanted to be “thirty, flirty, and thriving.” I was complaining that I was ready for my struggling 20’s to be over. I was kidding, mostly. Funny, how there is always a little bit of truth behind every “just kidding.” That was definitely true today and there was some pain behind those jokes of mine. The conversation got heavy when I told her that my prayers were sad and pathetic lately. What I meant to say is selfish. My prayers were self-centered lately. She responded with this little beautiful piece of wisdom: “search deep down inside yourself and you’ll find the good prayers there.” Boy Howdy did I need to hear that. Those words spoke right to my heart and grabbed hold.
I heard once and it stuck with me: “If God answered all of your prayers, would the world look different or just your life?” Lord, I’ve been getting it wrong lately and I’ve been so consumed with my own life. Thank you for the reminder to pay attention to everything around me today. Thank you for the reminder that the world is much bigger than just little ol’ me.
Lord, a few weeks ago I heard Crowder’s new song and I have been singing it in my head ever since. The words in the song immediately gave me chills. They sunk right in deep and stayed there. It has become my daily prayer.
So here is my prayer today. I wanna go back to the Garden. Lord, I pray that I long for your presence. I pray that I walk with you more. I pray that I keep going down to the river. I pray that I am set free from my sin. I pray that I talk with you more. I pray that I worship you more. I pray that I give you all that I am. I pray that I stop that stinkin thinkin. I pray that I stop making the same mistakes. I pray that I go deeper in my relationship with you. Lord, we let sin tear us away from the Garden and our walk with you, but I pray that we go back to the Garden. I pray that I keep running back to you. Thank you for forgiving me. Thank you for loving me much more than I deserve. I pray you keep workin on my heart and changin my thinkin. Lord, today I’m praying for your eternity plan. I pray that your will be done. I pray that we all start looking around us and see more than the five feet in front of us that we’re used to seeing every day. I pray that we are reaching out our arms to those around us. I pray that we are going where you lead us. I pray that we stop seeing it at us versus them and them versus us. I pray that we start fighting the real war. I pray that we come back to you and come back to the Garden. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.