You’re the One that guides my heart.

I went to the Women’s Event in Prattville where Allison Wilks was speaking and Point of Grace was performing. I grew up with Point of Grace cassette tapes and I played them until I knew every word. To say I was excited is an understatement. Allison spoke about how when she grew up she would think she has God’s plan figured out and she would hear: “wait, there’s more.” Like it wasn’t over. There was more to add to the story.

Before I came to the Women’s Event, I had an advising appointment today because my gpa is a C average. When the advisor explained that’s why we were meeting, I was crushed. It’s a new type of advising to give students extra help if they need it. It’s totally a good thing that they are trying to help students succeed, but I was incredibly embarrassed to be on the list that needed the help. My gpa is no secret and I wasn’t ashamed of it until today. I mean, my resume is fabulous and I’m like super involved on campus. I have lots to offer and I’ve worked really hard to accomplish everything I have. I don’t need validation, I know my worth. Still, to have someone decide I wasn’t doing good enough was a bitter pill to swallow. I could give you a million reasons why my gpa is low. I changed majors, I have test anxiety, blah blah blah. I got super defensive, but I didn’t even have the chance to defend myself. Tonight Point of Grace sang: “My one defense, my righteousness Oh God, how I need You.” I don’t have to defend myself. My gpa does not define me. While I may have a 2.48 gpa, all I can hear is wait, there’s more. Lord, You have a purpose for my life. You have a plan for my life down to the very last detail. You can and will use my C average for Your glory. My story is not over. There is more to come. You aren’t finished with me yet. I am here for a reason.

Allison said that we remember our sin, but we should remember our Savior more than our sin. More than our fear. More than our pain. More than our loss. More than our illness. More than our betrayal. We should remember Your character. Your works. Who You are. She continued by saying You are kind, loving, merciful, just, all knowing, all compassionate, and all powerful. We should remember You and move to act. She ended by saying we should “trust the One who is above all those other things.”

So, that is my prayer today. I pray that I trust you above everything else. I pray that I trust you above my weaknesses. I pray that I trust you above my gpa. Thank you for being my one defense. Lord, I need you. I am nothing without you. Lord, move me. I pray that you use me. I pray that you guide me. I pray that I remember you above my sin, my fear, my loss, my pain, my everything. I pray that I remember your character and your works and who you are. Thank you for being everything I need and so much more. Thank you And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

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