Yesterday, my heart was real heavy. For some reason, the devil was just working really hard yesterday. There was a lot of worry and stress and heartache. (So, since I’m already sad what do I do? Watch a Christmas movie where the mom dies.) As my birthday gets closer the more nervous I get. I’m so anxious about that day. What I realized yesterday was that I am not alone in my grief. My friends are missing him too. My best friend is missing her grandpa. A woman is missing her daughter.
My first thought was I can’t handle this. I’m not strong enough to deal with this much. Then I realized that’s the point. I am not built to handle this. I am not built to deal with this. I am not built to understand this. I am built to fall to my knees. I am built to bring my burdens and worry and heartache to You. I am built to come to You because You can handle it.
Psalm 55:22 says if we cast our burdens on You, You will sustain us. Even in the middle of my bad mood, I realize how big I’m blessed. Lord, You will sustain us. You will not only take care of us; You will strengthen us. You will support us and carry our burdens. We are Your children.
“Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.” Psalm 68:19
So, that is my prayer today. Thank you for sustaining me. Thank you for strengthening me. Thank you carrying my burden. Thank you for doing the same for everyone around me. Thank you for supporting my friends and family. Thank you for loving them even more than I do. Thank you for taking care of them. Lord, thank you for being strong enough. Lord, thank you for being more than enough. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.