Why do people feel the need to underestimate me when they don’t even know me? Like they don’t know anything about me but they tell me I’m not good enough. I am so exhausted and tired of people making judgments about what kind of person I am. Everyone has their own path to go down and their own story to tell. I have a resume a mile long with why I am fully capable of making my dreams come true. I am strong enough and work hard enough to get where I want to go. I don’t need anyone else’s approval to live my life. I just need you, God. You made me. You don’t do anything without reason. There is a purpose for every hair on my head. There is a purpose for my every strength, my every flaw, my every word and thought. You made me just the way you wanted. You made me with intentional purpose.
“So I wanna say thank you
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter”
Every time this happens I start to think maybe they are right and I doubt myself, if only for a minute because I know with you, Lord, I can do anything. You lift me up every time they knock me down. I have always been told that if you want to see change in the world, you have to go out and be the change. I am trying so hard so make a change and to bring glory to you but sometimes it feels like I will never be good enough. I heard this story one time that taught me that maybe I am just a seed planter; that I am not the one who gets to see the flower bloom but my job is important. Maybe it’s not about me. Maybe I am just a seed planter and you have a much bigger plan than I can even imagine.
“Every move I make
Every move I make, I make in You
You make me move Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in You
Every step I take, I take in You
You find my way Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in You”
So, this is my prayer today. I pray that I keep my eyes focused on you. I pray that I remember that I am your child no matter what anyone else says. I pray “every move I make in you.” I pray that you keep a hand on my life and lead me where you want. I pray I remember that I am a work in progress and that you are molding me. I pray that you keep working on me. I pray for strength and endurance. I pray that you keep “making me a fighter.” I pray that you keep reminding me that your plan is bigger. I pray that you use me. I pray that you keep me grounded. Thank you for making me who I am. I appreciate all you gave to me. And as always I pray for my family and sorority sisters. I pray for my university. I pray for guidance for our government, church, and school leaders. I pray for protection for our troops. I pray for all of those that need you now and for those that haven’t met you yet. In Jesus’ name, Amen.